Unscripted

(Source: blindspotsandsunshine)

Because you only get ONE LIFE. Why in the shit would you want to spend it worrying about what anyone else has to say?

I had a lot of time on my hands, so I actually jotted down a few notes on my phone so that I would remember to blog this when I got home. It’s been a long time since I’ve written like this so I’ll go ahead and apologize in advance if it’s not English class award worthy work. Bear with me.

It seems that lately everyone has this idea that being single is just the end of the freaking world. Now, I haven’t been single very long, so I can partially understand why the idea of being kissy-touchy-PDA ridden happy with someone just sends you swooning. BUT, I’ve spent a decent amount of time with myself lately, so much so that I really truly appreciate how healthy being by myself feels right now. I love it, I get to be the independent woman that I always promised my mom I would be. I feel empowered by solitude, seriously.

So I started thinking about how desperate people are to fall in love, and the measures that they’ll take just to do it. I think I finally understand why EVERYONE is breaking up, or getting a divorce. We (as a society) are trying so hard that we are actually willing to change who we are in order to appeal more to a certain person. I’m not talking about pretending to listen to their favorite band or saying that you love their favorite restaurant when you don’t, I’m talking straight altering the most important parts of yourself. Anyone can play pretend, shit I’ve got a 5 year old sister who I’m not sure has any grasp of reality whatsoever. It’s cute, don’t get me wrong, but you just can’t do it forever.

How long do you think the charade will last? No one can tell me that in their heart of hearts they honestly believe that changing themselves for someone else will make them happy. For a little while, maybe. But over time you’re going to look back and remember the things that used to make you YOU, and you’ll miss them. You’ll fill up with resentment, and your partner isn’t going to understand. It’s not fair to anyone, really. Think of it this way; if you can find someone who appreciates you, the actual genuine you, falling in love is going to be a piece of cake. Yeah, like anything worth having you’ll have to want it, work for it, and maybe even fight a little for it, but you won’t have to fight yourself. WHAT A FUCKING OBSTACLE, PEOPLE. You won’t have to worry about keeping secrets or suppressing your emotions. Instead of focusing on what you should do next, you’ll be able to take it as it comes and enjoy the shit out of it.

I don’t know, I just don’t understand why everyone can’t be normal, dammit. Be happy, be yourself, the rest will roll in like it’s supposed to.